Losing your way, is a part of truly finding yourself
How to step into the light after a period of darkness
The middle of Covid was rough. It was September 2021, and I was fighting more than ever with my partner at the time (my kid’s dad aka my baby daddy). We had always talked about doing polyamory, and I thought that of course- in my delusional/eluded fashion, that opening our relationship would fix everything….
In a way it made exactly what need to happen, happen.
Fast forward 3 years after a messy break-up, him getting my friend pregnant, me getting into a dark night of the soul situationship with a sociopathic drug addict…. who was a master manipulator, and hiding his use of fentynal and meth the whole time, more situationships of men using me, one which was broadcasted to the internet…. in the height of my delusion. draining my energy, me quitting my business, starting again, losing my belief in myself, and not having the confidence to create….
It’s taken therapy, it’s taken going to recovery meetings like sex and love addicts, and adult children of dysfunctional family programs, it’s taken learning to have boundaries for myself, and letting people go.
I realize, that this messy process I share with you all, is how life should be. We aren’t perfect, and anybody eluding that you, is lying. There is so much behind the scences happening in people’s lives, that they will just not show on social media… but I don’t do that. I also don’t show you everything, but eventually you’re going to see my pour my vulnerable heart out on the internet- and it’s to help you feel safe in your own journey.
I show you my messy as fuck process in being this incredible, powerful divine feminine healer- while simultaneously navigating my very human experience. Some of you reading this have seen the mess, and gotten the medicine from it with me.
I don’t have to be messy anymore, and I wanted to share with you the truth that I found in all the darkness that made me lose my way.
You are the creator of your reality, and if you want to create you must take radical responsibility for your energy…. your mind, body, emotions, and soul
If you lose your way, remember who you are by going back to the basics. What are your roots? Where did you begin your journey. I found solutions in going back to the roots of my practices- chanting mantra, listening to Abraham Hicks, checking in with my positive affirmations.
Remember, it is temporary. We cannot control everything in life, but we can control how we react. Using our mind to help us realize, that pain and suffering, are truly temporary, helps us see the light at the end of the tunnel.
This one might be hard to swallow, but you are never truly lost. You are hiding, there is a darkness that is covering your light, but you are not lost. You are right where you need to be, fulfilling all the contracts that your soul signed before you came into this life.
When you get off track, when you get distracted, the minute you realize you are…. DO something about it. For me, that’s turning to energy work. I always start to clear my chakras, and reset my subconscious with the new energy that I am creating. Energy is the basis of your life, when it’s off, you are off… tap in, tune in, and turn on.
I felt lost these past three years, but I realized that I was never lost, I was just in the thick of some deep soul shadow work that needed to clear, and I’m better for it.
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xoxo
-Liv